Bloggin in My PJ's About the All of it All

It's been an interesting past couple of days. I had my birthday Thursday and just relaxed as much as I could. That's all I really wanted was to have a day to chill. But considering I had both kids with me and Scott at work, I did my best. Mikah's birthday was Saturday. 5 years old ( tear drop) wow.....he's really getting big. He had a good birthday, he got his game for his gameboy and cake and we also went to the movies to see Shrek 2. Unfortunately during the movie I was having a very strange back pain and my doctor told me to go see if it was labor or not. Thankfully it wasn't and were at the hospital for only 2 hours. I canceled my baby shower for today, because my back and my hips are just killing me, and I don't really have the energy to get everything ready. I'm going to try to reschedule it for a later date, but it really depends on if I ever feel up to it. I push myself just to do light cleaning, let alone prep a shower, so time will tell where that goes. My dad has a couple more months of freedom. He went back to court the 7th and paid what he was due and if he can do the same in September he can be free for a couple more months. This means he'll have a chance to meet the baby if he ever has to go back to prison. Hopefully he can stay out of prison all together and just pay back the money he owes. Time will tell on that one too. My brother's best friend Angie had a baby Tuesday morning. Over ten pounds! Good grief. The poor girl had to have a c-section because the baby was so big. But her and the baby are fine and she's recovering from surgery good so far. Mikah and Kiara have these arm floaties to help them learn how to swim and also so I don't have to hold them in the deep water, but they are still very scared and untrusting with them, so for Mikah's Bday I got him and her one each of those blow up rings to go around their waists. Today we tried them out and both of them were pushing me and Shane away so they could be on their own. We stayed close of course, but they did great. If that's how we need to get them comfortable with the deep water at first, then so be it. It was well worth it. I'm wanting to start looking into swimming lessons at the local YMCA for Mikah. We'll see though. Well that the 'fleshy' diary post, here's something more on the spiritual side.....

Here lately I've been struggling with a decision on schooling and career choice. I've been praying about it more and more and am starting to lean away from medical transcriptioning. I'm still trying to find more information from people actually doing this from home, and I'm finding from them that you can't start out at home working. Most places need you to have about 2-3 years of experience in an office before they'll hire you. This is discouraging to find. I'm still going to search for more opinions and next week I plan to call some medical offices about who they hire and so on, and find some facts from the real sources, and I pray that whatever I hear good/bad, is what God needs me to hear. When I was having wonderful thoughts and plans for Med Trans, I was praying and asking God for a clear path and guidance with the med trans, and in the middle it was almost someone in my head interrupted me and told me to stop and then nursing popped into my head. This is VERY confusing to me. I know this isn't my thoughts, because I decided a long time ago that I didn't want to become a nurse. Nothing against nurses at all, its just that their work intimidates me, and my mom alone I know has put up with a lot of crud being a nurse. This confusion started about 2 weeks ago, and since I've just prayed that God would direct my passion and my heart where he wanted it to be. I know it has only been two weeks, but some of my insight has changed on nursing. It seems like a wonderful job to have if what you desire is to help people. I really wouldn't have that with med trans. (deep breath) But its a lot of school compared. There's a concern that the nursing isn't mine or God's idea, but a distraction from the enemy. I really hope I will get the idea this week when I call some medical offices. I'm being patient about it, though, which is different for me. I'm trying to find the peace in being 'floatable' to God. Where he can blow me in any direction, and I'm still okay with it.

I guess the main question of it all is: Is this a distraction or is this from God????? Anyone who could help me find out how to answer that question let me know....kind stuck inside of it.